||[Aug. 13th, 2005|03:15 pm]
|||||Mr. Brightside - The Killers||]|
So I had my dinner with Jay last night. He didn't come over the night before because of.. mis-communication? I don't know. Anyway, he came over and we talked, while I made him his grilled cheese.
Well, I tried, but as I was cooking he wouldn't stop coming over and tickling me, and making me laugh. It was weird. So then, we ate. He opened up a little about his mom, about how he needed her and missed her. I tried to comfort him, but I didn't know what to say. After dinner we watched some old game shows from the 60's and made fun of the people in them, and as we were sitting on the couch he pulled me in and kind of held me. He said he liked it better that way. Then he started kissing me. Like not making out, just like an occasional kiss on the head, or cheek, and even sometimes on the lips. I didn't know what to make of it all. Maybe he just needs comfort, since his mom died, and doesn't think of me in "that way" at all. Or maybe he does. So I just sat there, enjoying it all, until he got a call from Paige. They just talked, and I guess he realized he shouldn't be with me like we were, so he hung up, and then he said he had to go. I walked him to the door to shut it behind him. As he was leaving, he gave me like a longer, more lingering kiss. Once again, we weren't making out or anything. It was just a kiss. But I definitley felt something in it. And then he just walked outside, got in his car, and drove away. I really want to know what I'm supposed to think of what happened. It was a nice, eventful uneventful night.
And then tonight, I'm going out to a rave with Manny. I'm really excited, and I think it should be a lot of fun. I invited Spinner to meet up with us if he wanted to,
just as friends though, so we might see him at some point. I need to meet a guy tonight. Then, my mind will be off Jay, because truthfully- I cannot stop thinking about him.
And that is all.